He did nothing, after a sad long sigh, but prayed to God, prayed and prayed..., telling his deepest agonies and sorrows to God. I was so afaid that he just couldn't receive His voice of comfort for it was so tangled and complicated in his mind. His heart was weeping, sobbing for the misunderstanding, desolations and coldness got from others, especially from those who he loved with his pure soul, his innocent friendliness. I was so afraid, that he would lose his faith to God and turn to his being, his free will and simply let his ego drive him to nowhere with his fists of fury. Feeling betrayed, rejected and lonely, this young man encountered a sensational blow of power punch one can never easily take. Oh, is it fair to him?, I murmered to God, hoping Him not to put so many tests to my poor student, who has been wounded without passing his true love to any, not even one, he ever fell in love with.
After a moment, he opened his eyes, smashing off his cigarette bud (He is the only one I've ever seen till now who smokes while praying...), and told me, "It is painful indeed,well, I'll take it if it is from Him." He then pointed to the sky where God was listening there, with a somewhat reluctant smile. At this moment, I knew that he has passed one, if it was not the big final, great test of life.
I was sure it was certainly from God for after the test he might acquire piece and faith in his mind. I smiled at him too, with a deep sigh of releaf and thought to myself: "How little my faith to God it is! I just can't believe that Howard could get through it --- in God's way, not his."
He walked slowly to Super and his girl, well, now she belonged to Super, wishing them good lucky, turning around to me, raising both his hands upward to God, and said lightly with a slight smile, "Another heart-broken story, isn't it? That's all right, if, if only it is from Him..."
Saying good-bye to the new couple, I accompanied Howard till dawn, trying to give him more support and comfort. He didn't say much, only nodding and wondering while I retold the whole story to him, though he appearantly didn't show much interest about the toughness the story basically was. "I don't want to be showing off! But I really want God to know what I have done for Him. I wish them to know too."
"That's enough when He knows. He will grant you another romance, the only difference lies this time it's not arranged by you, but Him.", I replied.
"Yes, He will. I am waiting for 'Tien Ting' from now on!", he answered with confidence.
I saw him off with his fancy blue "Godspeed" motorbike dashing along Ming-tzu Road early in the morning, "Good-bye, brother, you lived out a great example to me.", I thought and watched him disappear at the road end, and at this moment I was sure, so sure that, maybe he should get a new English name...
After a moment, he opened his eyes, smashing off his cigarette bud (He is the only one I've ever seen till now who smokes while praying...), and told me, "It is painful indeed,well, I'll take it if it is from Him." He then pointed to the sky where God was listening there, with a somewhat reluctant smile. At this moment, I knew that he has passed one, if it was not the big final, great test of life.
I was sure it was certainly from God for after the test he might acquire piece and faith in his mind. I smiled at him too, with a deep sigh of releaf and thought to myself: "How little my faith to God it is! I just can't believe that Howard could get through it --- in God's way, not his."
He walked slowly to Super and his girl, well, now she belonged to Super, wishing them good lucky, turning around to me, raising both his hands upward to God, and said lightly with a slight smile, "Another heart-broken story, isn't it? That's all right, if, if only it is from Him..."
Saying good-bye to the new couple, I accompanied Howard till dawn, trying to give him more support and comfort. He didn't say much, only nodding and wondering while I retold the whole story to him, though he appearantly didn't show much interest about the toughness the story basically was. "I don't want to be showing off! But I really want God to know what I have done for Him. I wish them to know too."
"That's enough when He knows. He will grant you another romance, the only difference lies this time it's not arranged by you, but Him.", I replied.
"Yes, He will. I am waiting for 'Tien Ting' from now on!", he answered with confidence.
I saw him off with his fancy blue "Godspeed" motorbike dashing along Ming-tzu Road early in the morning, "Good-bye, brother, you lived out a great example to me.", I thought and watched him disappear at the road end, and at this moment I was sure, so sure that, maybe he should get a new English name...
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