自強街87號

Over 41 years, I've been wandering through this confusing world, lying and boasting off how great and intellectual I was. Well, God grants every one their unique task repectively and their intention to their tasks. In addtion, He also grants us the ability to finish the task. And we call this abilty "talent". I am not as "great" as I think to myself. In fact, every one is so, only that each has his or her own specialties. That's all. If I am good, then every one is good.

What has God really given me as my talents? In fact, I'm not so sure. Till now, what I know about my talents might be: 1. Techniques to communicate with people, esp. teaching, consulting, and negotiating. It seems that I can talk to people, listen to them, and understand them very easily and naturally, as if I know them for long. 2. Rational analysis and criticism - to find what is "right" and "wrong" objectively and emotionlessly. 3. Foreign language comprehension - thanks to my dad, he taught me English since I was 12 and introduced me the beauty of English and American literature from time to time along the way till I reached my late twenties. Afterwards I learned German, Japanese, and even some French effortlessly, picking them up with much less effort as others. 4. Appretiation of arts, esp. music, both appreciating and playing. I learned to play the piano and drums myself. I played the piano since I was 10 with a teacher but quit right after I got a broken left arm 6 months later. I picked it up back again when I was in Fu-jen. I learned to play the Beethoven's sonatas, G major, op. 22 with only one warm and powerful reminding from Liszt: "To play it well, play it slowly first." Thus I got the cue. I played many masterpieces thereafter, Mozart, Beethoven, Chopin, and Schumann... --- by myself, through self-studying. Per the online instructions I collected drums courses and play it not badly, proved by one of my students who major in percussion at graduate school. 5. Good comprehension of Chinese martial arts, esp. Qui, which turned my weak and allergic constitutional vulnerabilities into strong, very strong, supple and agile, full of energy all the times.

So, what's the point? It seems that God grants me many, maybe more than ordinary. Since He gave me so much, He must expect from me much. Did I ever utilize my talents to do something beneficial to Him, or at least to fellow people? Did I make people more close to Him, to know Him as the Father of all kinds, and to know Jesus, the only Saviour of humans in the last generations? To fail the one's expectations, esp. the one that loves you so much, is a bad feeling. It may as well be counted as guilt. Being not able to do a lot of things well is not guilty, rather what you could have done well.

Well as Ecclesiastes 2:3 goes: "I wanted to see what was worthwhile for men to do under heaven during the few days of their lives." Yes, what is worthwhile for me under heaven during my rest single days of my life is, also as 9:10 goes, one of my favorite Scriptures, "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might." Once I've done what is worthwhile with all might, it is worthwhile doing it. And it is worthwhile being around under heaven and then going back there.

In respond to those hybrid "fufive"s, I've suddenly come up with five logical words: 1. Acts. 2. Truth Value. 3. Multilingual. 4. Sonatinen. 5. Transformer. Why "logical"? 1. A claypiece knows what the Potter wants him to be. 2. The Potter can't be another potter. Other potters can't be the Potter. 3.+4. +5. How is the claypiece shaped? 

Thus, I will be somehow less guilty.