自強之路

Three, two, one, go! Going to the sheer enjoyment of true freedom! 

I am about to set off, toward another uncertain direction of life from now on, from a place where I've stayed for over 16 years since 1993, from those whom I've got acquainted with while I was still swaggering around with my "million-dollar" pin on the tuxedo, most importantly, from where I've realized what true friendship and life might be. Well, here I am at the very spot before the end of June though, my heart and devotion have been somewhere else...

It is a matter of time, before when I've been pondering and idling around, praying constantly for my further assignment, to face the music, managing to deal with one ot  the deepest fear in my mind --- to change what long has been in the seemingly correct groove ever since. Chance that I would have my kid starved; chance that my wife would turn her back to me; more of a chance that I might find my hand nowhere to labour, reaching out to the utter darkness without a clue for the next step. Yet I leave no room for my baffle, not even a second! I know for sure what I've encountered for these days, what I've got from Him, and how I'm supposed to handle. I've left plenty of space for improvement for all of us, including myself, and this is now what I could do at most after all. At least I've tried my best to settle down the debating and mutual misunderstanding, not smearing any brutal color of prejudice and arrogance. Yes, I am engaging with it quite well. I know I am doing right. I know the real focus, which is not being far from hunger as priority but following His way.

"Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Let us therefore, as many as be perfect, be thus minded: and if in any thing ye be otherwise minded, God shall reveal even this unto you. " As what Phillippians 3:13-15 has been mentioned here, this is what I should meet as a challenge, an X challenge! Face the fear!

Three, two, one, go! Going to the sheer enjoyment of true freedom!